Okay,

I know it has been awhile, yes I do know this. As you may already know by the posts that I have posted, I have since got married, and I now have a new PC. so yea, I can blog and post, or work more often. Last night was a bit upsetting, for the first time since we've been married we slept in different homes, he slept in his and I slept in mine. although I did"nt sleep very well, but yes I did sleep. So now I'm sitting here alone in silence and loving it. I'm selfish like that. I like my solitude time alone. The day, well it has been raining most of the day. If you know me, you know that I  like it like that.. we are off work today, there wasn't any school for the students nor the assitants. so we have a 3 day weekend for this EASTER holiday weekend. I love you, yes u know I do, I just don't know how to make him happy with what he wants. I am happy with my life, but I can see, u know I can, I can see his unhappiness, even though he states that he is and he loves me dearly. I know he may see the unhappy face in me as well sometimes, I wish I knew how to make him open up about what he really wants. Honestly this was a fast and a huge change in our lives. were married. his 60 years old, and believe it or not this is his first marriage and my second. interesting, because now the experience in both of us is quite different. meaning about the lifestyle we both have lived. his wisdom and my actuality of doing (being married)). so yes, we argue, a lot. we love and we sex. that's normal right? yet,

not  easy! we slept apart last night.!!!! I love him!!!!!

always,
LaShunda Miller-Byers